Not sure what to say. Still pondering my thoughts and feelings and anticipate that will continue.
I want to share something so here are a few thoughts. Forgive the "jumbledness" (is that a word?) of them:
My muscles are sore from sobbing and face raw from tears. I went to sleep crying and woke up crying.
I keep pondering the word God gave me when I first arrived in Texas:
Matt. 11:30, "His yoke is easy and His burden light.". His yoke (relationship with Christ and serving Him) is easy (good, well-fitting). His burden (law's righteousness) is light.
Vs. 28: "come to Me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest (refreshment, ceasation from toil).
This word gave me rest and refreshing to go through this and continues to strengthen me today.
My tears and the feeling in my heart help me to know I am alive. This heartbrake I can bare but one moment without Christ, I cannot. Nor can anyone else.
I am convinced the word speaks truth: to the weight of our affliction is the weight of our glory.
I don't (and won't) walk through anything in life that God does not get the glory and people are not set free!
Thank you for your prayers, e-mails and posts. They are lifting me. They come straight to my blackberry.
From beautiful Arizona...
Mel
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7 comments:
P. Mel-
I'm so sorry. My heart breaks for you. We will continue to lift you up in prayers and God's Will be done in this situation. You are going to have an amazing testimony to share when the time comes. Your testimony will give amazing hope and strength to others who are dealing with infertility. You are a strong women of God and I admire your strength in this situation.
I'm praying for healing and that God will comfort you and give you peace within.
Sara
I find my heart aching and my eyes swelling thinking of this. But I am so amazed at your strength and courage.
Words seem to be such a selfish device for me to ease my own inability to "fix" it, especially knowing that the only true comfort is being in the Lord's presence. So during this time, my prayer will be that you feel His presence stronger and more tangibly than you ever have before.
Love and prayers from Nashville,
Tamara
I dont know what to say.... Im so sorry. Im praying for you both.. If your close to Kingman, there is a Cracker Barrel.. right accross the street from Wally World...
Please drive say..
I love you both
-Laurie
Like Tamara said, there just really aren't any words...not as though anything that any of us could say would ease the pain. But I assure you that if there WAS something we could do to take that from you, we would!!
I have lost count how many times I have thought of you today, and have prayed. It's my sincere hope that my prayers are being heard and that His arms are literally wrapped around you both right now...I love you!!
Praying that decisions were made out of love and not guilt. Your heart is amazing and today you have reminded me to lift up those who don't know Christ at all. I could not imagine that life. Deep breaths.... It will all come together. PS: never tried grits until moving to Nashville and visiting CB. It took me 3-times to try grits. HELLO! Not so bad with Tabasco actually! Love you GOBS!
When I first read the sad news on P. Jeff's and your blogs, my heart cried deeply. Now I am reminded of the positive elements of this event. You have deeply blessed, not just a new baby, but her mother and her family as well. If it weren't for the process, they would never have known you, the faith you have and it's likely they all are now counted amoung those you include in your "prayer flock." I believe this to be just as powerful. May He continue hold you in his strong embrace and keep away the enemy. We are all looking forward to your safe return.
I'm sorry, terrly told me last night what happen and i just wanted you to know that i'm praying for you and Pastor Jeff.
Juan
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